i blogged about all my exams.
today's entry is procrastinated till now.
because i dont really feel like talking about it.
thankfully physio shock me and woke up me from my daze.
just hope wadeva i ZHAM is alright haha.
wonder how my last paper will be like..... (killer!)
+ val-* @ 12:50 AM
i cursed someone(jokingly,no i did NOT say it outright on purpose)that he/she will fail anat.
i regret can!got karma!
my physio......=/
and after the exam all the concepts just came back like it ever existed in my brain(or rather reappeared after the exam) while i drank my coffee.all the thirst stimulation ADH prudction and how i drank more water then how urine will become more diluted and increase in volume.
crap.
pp tmr.hope i'll be alright.
+ val-* @ 10:38 PM
2down, 3togoinawhile.
reportingstatsiscrap.wastemytimestudying.
okay la at least i know how to do because i studied.no confusion of the inverse.
bleah chionging physio.
physiophysiophysio.
hope i dont die studying tmr cos it's my 2nd day of the consecutive4.
madness.
this is college life.period.(sounds like gigi)
+ val-* @ 10:48 PM
YAY ANAT IS OVER!
how happy can things get?i hate memorising stuff(though i used to do that alot).
anat is such a nice module but the memorising suck.if i had all the time in the world i would read martini slowly.sadly there's always too little time for everything.
ANW IM STILL GLAD THE EXAM IS OVER=D
ate shokudo with meEEeee.hahaha.i was so happy i got my camera with me then..
*press on button and waits*
*no response*
*press again*
*still no response*
*took out and put in the batt again*
*no response*
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
im sshooooo sad i cant shoooow you all the foooood!
it's super super nice!we ate sashimi,rosti,huo3 guo1,unagi in egg and onions,jap pizza,ham and cheese omelette,bacon with cherry tomato+bacon with prawns+terriyaki chicken on stick,chicken with omelette rice,cheese cake,icecream waffle.
hahaha and i still wasnt that full after that.AHH i think anat exam really suck energy.make me super hungry and armed with a big appetite for shokudo.
but the things there are pretty expensive though.dont think i'll go back again but you pple out there who havent tried should go try!yummylicious(:
gotta go celebrate my ah gong's bdae later.supposed to mug but im so not in the mood!
haha maybe when i come back i shall mug abit hahaha.
+ val-* @ 5:09 PM
i think i was suffering from CFDS(close friends defiency syndrome,symptoms include depression, an overly wild imagination and paranoia)
i.was.SUPER.glad.to.see.you.all.on.the.bus.OVERJOYED.
and bygones became bygones.
i miss all of you!
+ val-* @ 10:47 PM
this was wad was deleted previously.
i admit im not very good at maintaining frenships since i was young.
(i had so much in my mind,but now it's blank)
道不同不相为盟，do things really work that way?
i know i can't please everyone.
but everything i do seem to hurt my loved ones more and more.
i've tried running,but i end up running back.
i've tried to to reason with myself,but end up being unreasonable.
there's no reason for me to treat anyone that way because im being treated in a particular way.
there's no reason for me to hide.
but sometimes i really wonder wad's wrong with me.
but nvm!i feeling more positive now at stuff.
i was just silly i guess.
i know i can do it.
valerie can do it!
she will try her very best to make things right again.
even if it's not the same but still hopefully it'll be better(:
for now it's studying for exams!
may the mood in the air become lighter and more qing song!=D
just want to say it to someone who made my life alot happier nowadays:
thanks for everything!thanks for listening to me and encouraging me.and for standing by me when all things go wrong.thanks for that offline msg ytd night!it really made my day(: thanks for the "valuable advice" that u gave for something=P thanks for every single thing u've done to make me not want to give up.thanks for everything really.love you E!<3
and thank you too!
under His wings....
+ val-* @ 12:13 AM
i haven't been very spiritually active when i chanced upon this on jasmine's blog.and i just want to share it with the little bit more people who reads my blog, hoping that it touches ur heart and revive ur passion for the Lord.
This is just my 2 cents' worth of something I hold very close to my heart.I'm not here to start a war, so please understand, I'm not here to shove my opinions down your throat, nor am I brainwashing anyone here.
I just read a friend's blog about her views on Christianity and I totally understand how she's feeling.In fact, I think she does have a few valid points. Yes, the church in general has had scandals, there have been public as well as private stories of how cheating, lying, back-stabbing, harassment and general very un-Christian-like behaviour has occured.
I can't deny it.What about my own personal life? Yes, I have had bad times. Sometimes I don't understand why things happen, sometimes I even wonder whether it's worth it to sacrifice so much for a magic invisble man high in the sky.Especially in the June-August period, which was a particularly bad season for me, it took a lot of faith to stay committed and not just drop everything and run. Even now... I've had patches of rays of sunshine in my life, and I'm very grateful for them. But I still haven't fully recovered from the blow I received.
But I've led a life without God before. I know the emptiness it brings. I know what it's like to wonder if there is anyone in the world that truly cares about you for who you are, and not for your status, your achievements, your worth.I know what it's like for the whole world to turn their backs against you, and I know what it's like to feel absolutely alone with no one to turn to, not even family, not even your closest friends.I know what it's like to be discriminated. I know what it's like to be eaten up by jealousy and spite and anger.I know what it's like to feel fear. I know what it's like to feel that everyone is better than you.I know what it's like to be the little oddball in class who did weird things and have everyone laugh at you. (It's one of my first memories in fact.) I lived that life before.
And you thought my life was a perfect little ray of sunshine! Nah, I was a demented little freak. Ask any of my secondary school friends, they'll tell you how I used to get angry over the littlest of things (like them laughing at me for fun?) and giving them the cold shoulder for a few weeks. Actually I still wonder how they managed to put up with me. LOVE LOVE SACians!
I appreciate the love of God all the better now. And I see the difference He's made in my life now, and the difference He wants to make. I know I've improved in character. (Thank goodness. LOL!) I know God has blessed me with people who truly love me. I know that I am far more valuable than any other valuable entity in this world, because the maker of heaven chose to die for me.
I can't explain why some Christians choose to act the way that they do. But ultimately please remember, that Christians, we aren't perfect people, we're just forgiven. We try to be good, but sometimes we stumble and fall too.In short, we're just like you, just that we have one more thing.
We chose to accept the love of God.
That's what we fight for, that's what we live for, that's we strain towards.A love that is everlasting, a love that is pure and perfect, a love that transcends all understanding.
The older I get, the more I understand. And the more I understand, the more I doubt. The more I doubt, the more it seems I shouldn't believe.But I cannot deny that God is real, and that God loves me.So the more I believe.
How true the last paragraph is!how often i wrestle with my believe,knowing that it's impossible that i know everything about what i truly believe and placed my faith in.it's hard to convey how christianity is not just about an emotional support but something more than that.i wish that i could just be more determined to use my free time to clear my doubts about my faith.
i had my down times,He was with me.through my good times,He was still with me,showering me with His blessings.in the busy-ness of uni life,i had just this tiny tendency to shove him away when everything was overwhleming.im guilty of that.and i was really grateful for the timely reminder jasmine's post gave me.i knew how this is the God who created the heavens and the Earth, who always stood by me, who gives me strength when im weak.
Thank you Lord.and i can't thank you enough.
/Lord i want to come under your heavenly hands
and to praise you in all that i do/
+ val-* @ 5:02 PM
sitting in my own room in front of my comp,rushing out notes for my stats elective module,it was silence except for the aircon and the occasional brushing of papers...
and tick tock tick tock.
as i rest my chin on my right arm,i could hear my watch ticking near my ear.
time is ticking merrily away...
and my motivation to study harder just increased by that little bit.
+ val-* @ 5:37 PM
perhaps ignorance is really bliss.
look at the kids.
sometimes i wonder why the more u experience life the harder it is for you to laugh out loud.
haha i sound old.
sometimes i wonder..
and i wonder..
and i wonder.
then i think of "ham,egg and cheese",
and i wonder if i should stop wondering about certain stuff.
i havent blogged about happy stuff for quite awhile i realised!
there are actually quite alot of happy stuff like bdae celebrations but yeah somehow i just feel like blogging only when im not THAT happy.
nevertheless im quite contented with my life for now.
okay im freaking tired.
ciao!
+ val-* @ 2:39 AM
guess i shall gather my self discipline and start mugging.
oh man i dont know wad im doing.
supposed to have much more concentration than this.
think i shall camp at the lib from next wk onwards.
and i really feel like locking up my laptop and throwing the key away.
RAH.
jiayou valerie!
and jiayou everyone else too!
dont be like me!haha
+ val-* @ 11:46 PM
i feel that im in a whirl now.
im suddenly in the mood to do lots of stuff.
settle my MRT comms(like finally) and other MRT stuff.
but somehow at times i feel things are never ending.
plus my other commitments im really tempted to give up some.
esp when i feel my studies are in jeopardy.
yet sometimes i feel it's all worth it.
so wad if my results arent the best.
i can spend more time with my frens...do wad i want.
i guess it's my last chance to do such things.
maybe i just need to find a balance.
and i think i can do it(:
some things are just so amazing.
but im done with it.
+ val-* @ 9:40 PM