Today, there were just 3 questions that made me think about my career. It's probably not the 1st time i was asked these questions, but probably the first time i actually thought and said the answer honestly.

Do you like your job?
On a scale of 1-10, how much do you like your job?
Do you wake up dreading to go to work?

Previously, i've mostly said that i like my job. it's not too bad, it was what i set out to do initially (somewhat). All along it has been like that, so far the path just unfolds for me from young, and i've always been telling myself i like it.

but if i really think about it, i think i find my job ok? perhaps a 7? and no i don't dread going to work but i do find myself avoiding some tasks at work. sometimes it makes me think if that means i don't really like my job. yet some parts of it are really enjoyable, unfortunately it's not the majority of my time.

another crisis i had recently was the feeling of complacency. like i suddenly didn't feel like advancing, just wanting to stay at the same spot, dreading the longer work hours and greater commitment. To be honest, after completing what i initially set out to achieve in soc, i haven't thought of what i aim to do this year. and i've been trying to avoid the question altogether and going with the flow. but is that really right? should i voice out what i want more? but what do i really want?

for now, it's a little more watchful waiting, seeing if any opportunities come by, to see what i can do currently, to see if i should move forward or broaden my base. in any case, i do need to avoid facing reality and being in denial. opportunities dont just drop from heaven, so i definitely need to be a little more proactive than i am now.

to be contented but not complacent. to be ambitious but not crumble with failure.

+ val-* @ 1:32 AM

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