totally not in the mood to study PK.
one did 1 pathetic ywp chpt so far.
sians.

ytd was really fun!
i think due to the lack of sleep and the dreariness of exams
and the really horrible pharmlaw paper
i wasnt really in the mood for the recital initially.
plus i had to chiong for dental and then chiong to nlb
and have to report damn early.

the 1st good news was that my dental was pushed earlier cos someone cancelled her appt=D
so it wasnt that rushed and i could at least grab lunch at delifrance 1st
then we werent late cos zee was later HAHA
the run got me alittle upset cos i forgot steps and wasnt really warmed up
but after that we all went out for lunch tog and shop for zee's present!
got to bond with the dancers and it was really fun!
they're really nice people
but you really get to meet and see all sorts of pple in dance man
so they say, dance unites people despite who you are.
because we all speak one common language.
although i must say im still not very used to their culture HAHA

making up and practising along the corridors was really the best part of the whole thing!
everyone was vying for mirrors and i even went to the other room HAHA
and there was once we practiced the entire routine at the corridor
screaming the song at the top of our lungs,
totally failing in our singing but had a hell lot of fun
just imagine a whole group of 10+ pple standing along a narrow corridor in all the different directions and dancing and singing the entire choreo!
i was laughing so hard i think i didnt manage to sing or dance for most part
but it was really memorable!
kind of helped to bring up the energy during the actual run,
and we cheered at the very last part where we all did the same steps in sync.
super high man.
and although i made a few mistakes,
but overall it was really fun and awesome!
received good feedback about the item too,
most ppl found it really entertaining and said it was one of the best=DD
am proud to be in the item although i think i buang my exams this time haha.
no regrets=DD

+ val-* @ 5:48 PM

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i feel so tired.everyday im just craving more sleep and not getting more.cant wait for hols,although i totally packed my 1st wk of hols because after that the rest are going to start on preceptorship.

im kind of glad that i took batch2.
kind of needed the break this time because this sem is really too crazy.
not the studying part but everything else.
i kind of overkilled myself because i got to the conclusion that i wont need to pia so much this sem.
must really really really not slaughter myself next sem alr.
for once in nus i shall chillax my sem away.
with maybe a dance class or 2 here and there.
it'll be bogged down by fyp anw.

that aside,
it really feels like exams are over!
kind of feel abit sian for recital tmr because we've to be there super early when the rest only need to reach at 4?!!i think my choreographer mix up the time man.
i feel like chao genging and not be there at 12.
will end up rotting my whole day away SIAN.
all i need is just sleep actually.
that being said,i should go sleep now.
i kind of want to blog about other stuff but sleep prevails.
bye world.

+ val-* @ 11:30 PM

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with the ongoing fuss about GE,
i cant help but think abit more about leaderships and related matters.
i won't comment anything about the GE itself though.

to be a leader that everyone respect is so difficult.
because nobody's perfect,
and you can never please everybody.
there are always two sides to a coin,
and there's no absolute right or wrong in most things.

being up there is never easy.
and if you don't feel strongly about something,
you won't really want to be up there,
because you get yourself into deep shit with no other benefits,
unless of course someone even higher offers you those benefits.
you do alot of shit that pple dont see,
you get alot of shit that you have to clean up,
you cant say or do anything wrong because people are always ready to take you down,
you got to think fast and make difficult decisions.
it's never ending.

but all the sacrifices will be worth it,
if you know what you're doing and if you had a vision(:
like what neo yu wei said in his article,
there's nothing that keeps people going like failure.
and no matter what mistakes you made,
no matter what you had to go through,
it's always a learning opportunity;
learn; and keep going!

+ val-* @ 12:51 AM

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today while i was studying (or not)
i let my mind drift away for quite some time to think about things.
first dance popped into my head and i was wondering if i would actually take up the 29/4 perf if i was in yr1 or 2.
probably not.
then i thought about pharmville and asked myself if i would have done it in the past.
maybe i would,just that i wouldn't have taken it up last yr due to reasons other than workload.
and then i thought about all the gifts that God gave me all the way from young until now.
whatever things He gave me the opportunity to pick up,
whatever traits He bestowed me since i was born.
i am thankful.

and i sometimes lament at the amount of things i do.
like why dont i just consent to living a normal mundane life and do things that are 10times more fun and less stressful.
here's the answer (from matthew 25):
¹⁴ “Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his wealth to them. ¹⁵ To one he gave five bags of gold, to another two bags, and to another one bag,^[a] each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. ¹⁶ The man who had received five bags of gold went at once and put his money to work and gained five bags more. ¹⁷ So also, the one with two bags of gold gained two more. ¹⁸ But the man who had received one bag went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master’s money.

¹⁹ “After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. ²⁰ The man who had received five bags of gold brought the other five. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with five bags of gold. See, I have gained five more.’

²¹ “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

²² “The man with two bags of gold also came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with two bags of gold; see, I have gained two more.’

²³ “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

²⁴ “Then the man who had received one bag of gold came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. ²⁵ So I was afraid and went out and hid your gold in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.’

²⁶ “His master replied, ‘You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? ²⁷ Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

²⁸ “‘So take the bag of gold from him and give it to the one who has ten bags. ²⁹ For whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them.

i always knew this passage, but never acknowledging it.
i guess i do now.
and if that's the case,
i will put in all my hard work to use what God has given me.
from a quote i heard in a korean drama
if you're supposed to draw water from the well,
do you not draw water instead of cutting wood?
well i guess that's the principle i will live by.
do what im meant to do and look only in that direction.


+ val-* @ 12:38 AM

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i think i just got a heart attack.
rach pls tell me you accepted RH i will come supper with you everyday!!!
to think i was so quite sure that prof ho was referring to paul ho-.-

noooOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo
-.-


that aside,
i kind of feel like im pushing myself to my limits this time.
mainly to blame on my procrastination this time in thinking that there's alot of time left to study.
without taking into consideration that dance is going to eat up alot of my time.
and for a concert that no one's going for at that.
but the item is fun, and i've learnt not to regret my actions
because it's true that i do enjoy whatever i choose to do.
just that it comes with some sacrifices that im not accustomed to accepting.
jiayou val!no matter what you'll have to persevere!
with or without support!

+ val-* @ 2:01 AM

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i learnt alot today during sermon, and i hope whatever i typed here may be of help to you all be it that you are a christian or not.

today's sermon addressed the question that i always had
be it whatever things i read.
the bible, my notes, books, etc.
dont seem to rmb the contents the next day unless i made special effort to memorise it.
but here goes a story...

one day, a pastor met a girl who lived on a mountain.
the girl asked, why is it impt to read the bible even if i'll just forget what i've read?won't it be useless?
the pastor replied, go take your rattan basket to draw water from the well.
the girl was puzzled, but she obeyed and went to draw water from the well.
when she came back, she said,"see, there's no way i can get any water back using the rattan basket!"
the pastor asked her to try again, and the same thing happened 2 more times.
finally the pastor said,"although you didn't get any water back, but by dipping your basket into the well, don't you think it looks cleaner now?"

indeed it was. and so it'll be just by reading God's word. It has a cleansing and purifying effect on your soul even if you couldnt rmb most of what you've read. It's really quite enlightening for me because i always felt sad that i can really rmb the news i've read, the books i've read, the bible passages i've read, and other things i've encountered in my life. i guess although i don't rmb but it does have an impact on me, just like how i wouldnt rmb what i ate a month ago on a particular date, although i was filled from it and it wasn't useless.

also, i got reminded that we should always tune into the Holy Spirit.
as my pastor put it, imagine you've been listening to a gossip channel on the radio.
yet at the same time, you admire those who listen to classical music and think that they are sophisticated. by continuing to listen to the gossip channel and not doing anything to be more sophisticated, you won't change. you may not understand classical music when you first start listening to it, and may even feel uncomfortable not listening to the juicy gossips, but once you've learnt how to enjoy the classical music, going back to the gossip channel may just make you feel disgusted at how you managed to tolerate so much rubbish in the past.

similarly, we must always tune into the Holy Spirit.
at the start, it may seem really uncomfortable because afterall, we belong to the flesh.
but gradually as we get used to the guidance and teachings of the Holy Spirit,
hopefully we may one day view the temptations of the flesh with disgust lest we succumb to it.






+ val-* @ 12:16 AM

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with all the hoohaa on facebook and twitter recently,
i can't help but feel appalled at the things that pharmacy students can write.
some pple just dont understand the impact their words posted online has.
no doubt there are pple who condemn their actions online
but it doesn't change anything because like they put it
it just take a speck of charcoal powder to turn ur lactose capsules grey.

not only does it reflect badly on pharmacy,
it doesnt reflect good on the individuals themselves,
so if they may one day gain enlightenment,
i hope they stop posting such things again.

what happened to the qualities that pharmacists are supposed to possess?
to be gracious, to be loving, to have empathy, to be united?
if we in our daily lives are already like that,
there's no way we can treat our patients with compassion and grace and empathy.

then again,
before i start pointing fingers at others,
which i guess given my nature i really have 1000000 things to say
i should start looking at myself 1st.
i really hope all these will blow over soon
it's really quite digusting and disappointing to read all these.

+ val-* @ 12:02 AM

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dance is heart work.
to dance it well you must quan xin quan yi,
gan xin le yi, jin xin jin li.

so no complaints=D
and im starting to enjoy myself alot for practs=D

i figured that i'll only feel upset abt my results way after the concert,
so since i wont know till long time later i shall just enjoy my dance nw 1st and not think so much=D

happy!

+ val-* @ 1:28 AM

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i am starting to feel stressed.
but maybe im over reacting cos i set my study dates abit too ridiculously.
chill val chill.

and HENGAH i didnt drink bubbletea today.
although i think the damage has alr been done for the past month=x
my partner cannot lift me.WARAOS.
but i think it's his problem cos other guys can lift leh LOL.
but i still feel fat=x
now my lost gone abs has 8 finger marks.
boohoo.
stresssssssssssssss.

val dont know what she's thinking this sem.
actually every sem it's like that but usually by this time should have no activities liao.
but now still got.
ah so crazy man!
shall not think about it.
im quite excited actually!=DD

+ val-* @ 2:16 AM

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Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

+ val-* @ 10:19 PM

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God made me strong for a reason.
He made me strong so that i can see that there are still things that i cannot do by my own strength and might no matter how hard i try.

+ val-* @ 12:56 AM

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Today's sermon was about the 4th beatitude.
blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.

i..got rmbed of how going to church became quite a mundane thing for me,
where sunday school classes taught the same thing again after the 8 yr cycle.
where my church offers countless camps, night classes on weekdays, prayer meeting, fellowship yadayadayada number of chances to listen to God words.
that it became like im a sponge just passively absorbing when i want to
and not absorbing when im too saturated.

so i gave up fellowship first.
i still dilligently go for sunday sch and worship service
but yeah i guess i just listen when i want to haha.

then i was intro-ed to BSF.
the savior of my spiritual life.
really force me to read and do my homework diligently.
keeping me close to God's words everyday(:

+ val-* @ 10:04 PM

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Dear Lord, forgive me when I don’t sit and take summary of Your tremendous favor in my life. Your blessings are far superior to anything this world can give me. Help me to remember my place of “thus far” when Your plan for my life leads me to another season that may be risky and cause me to walk by faith and not by sight. I offer this praise of thanksgiving to You.

+ val-* @ 8:47 PM

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HOT.plus lab reports = dying.

+ val-* @ 5:39 PM

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