achievement unlocked!:D
feels ultra good to be dancing today again after 9 mths!
and better still, i finally stepped into oschool(:
although i really felt like shit cos everyone's damn good, but still, WHO CARES!
im just really glad to have enjoyed myself and to be doing the dance that i really love!
i really hope to go more often, but im abit shy *blushes*
i hope the rest will be going!although i guess it's not like i talk to them during class but u knw, before class i won't feel so awkward. even with them around just now it was still awkward!
heehee, anw really hope i can keep dancing(: waacking is really my love<3 div="" nbsp="">
and i also hope to unlock more achievements! all my post-prereg plans!:DDDD
+ val-* @ 12:01 AM
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
today, finally, i accounted to myself.
from the start of prereg, i never really felt that i was competent.
there were alot of instances, even towards the end, that i felt i wasn't fit to be a pharmacist.
i was afraid of my carelessness, afraid of my lack of knowledge,
afraid that one day i might really kill somebody with my inadequacies.
i still feel so now.
failing mid-viva, has always been a thorn in the flesh.
it is a thorn that is always there, reminding me how i "killed" an imaginary patient, reminding me of how i really was inadequate.
but it is also because of the thorn, that i recognise my inadequacies; i would not have acknowledged them otherwise.
because of the thorn, i strived hard to find ways to improve myself, to shift my priorities, to open my mind, to give myself another chance.
it did add on quite abit of stress, and it took courage to acknowledge and admit the weakness.
but it was worth it. the reflections, the humbled attitude towards learning and reliance, i saw the light today.
and i hope, the light today will not blind me.
after a really tiring 10mths, i hope i became stronger and more ready to accept the challenges ahead!
(:
for now, sleep triumphs! ever since i got 2 days of MC post-viva and slept almost 40hrs of it away, i'm pretty addicted to sleep HAHA. im really ultra sleep deprived, only realised it when i don't feel so prone to nodding off or dozing off when im stoning or doing something boring. now sleep is such a luxury, and the best part is i can enjoy it! well, at least for another 1-2 weeks or so(:
but other than sleep, my favourite activities, here i come:D
im really excited about the 2 weeks im here in SG before i go for 2 more wks to korea:D
can't wait for everything!
+ val-* @ 10:19 PM
happy(:
finally all the ordeal is over. today some were saying 11june seems just like yesterday.
YA RIGHT.
it has been a freaking long torture that seemed never ending.
at least it's a happy ending! looking forward to the next phase!
for now, it's all the admin crap again and emptying my next month's pay for the bloodsuckers.
still, sun, sand and sea, here i come(:
and the 20358945 other things waiting for me!:D
+ val-* @ 11:43 PM
depressed.
in my slump now. nv felt so out of shape in 24 yrs of my life.
somehow the fact that everyone is having a hard life too just doesn't help.
me wants a break! i want a 1 week break spent in singapore aloneeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
okay not necessarily alone but just to do whatever i want with nobody to bug me or pester me or to stick to me or to nag at me.
i want to just lie on the beach and stare at the blue sky and fall asleep. and pretend im in heaven.
i want to sit in a cafe, enjoy my cup of coffee with no hurry to zoom off somewhere and read my book.
i want to dance!
i want to nua a whole day at home playing my piano, just lying around, watching my shows and entertaining myself.
i want to cook something, make something, draw something.
i want to hang out with my dear friends (when i finally have enough alone time) and do some crazy shit. or alternatively baring our hearts out to each other.
i want to have some quiet time, with God. unfortunately i put this last again, just to be really honest with myself. i hope to make it a natural priority in me some time soon.
+ val-* @ 11:10 PM