sometimes i think it's so contradictory and i feel like im being messed around but one day i will understand.
for now i shall be contend with seeking His will.
and i'd need alot alot alot of courage to do that,
and to face the truth.
i havent been very good at such stuff and i will continue not to be.
but one day i'd understand.
and that's why i need to submit to Thy will now.

+ val-* @ 6:12 PM

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for the past few years,
i always have 5 resolutions for the new year.
and i've never managed to achieve all 5 before.
so this year i only have ONE.

to put God as the centre of my life.

i think that sets my direction for many things.
and everything.
it clears up alot of things for me.
and there are some things i have to give up now.
and some to give up when the time's up.
but i know i wont regret.
i may be sad now,but He does great things His way.

to think that you all still dont understand
how much i really cherish friendships
how much i'd give up just to be the way we were
i've tried, i gave you all chances
but since i dont think it's possible to turn back
there's only one way i can go;



+ val-* @ 12:19 AM

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when 3 days felt like eternity;

christmas's gone in a rush,
a new year is coming soon.
but why do i feel that im not growing up?
why do i still struggle so hard for that bit per mth that wont matter in the end?

tormented soul;

+ val-* @ 1:42 AM

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after not pampering myself for so long,
i stepped into body shop today and bought 2 things(:
still raving over the lip liner and lip gloss i bought.
dont roll ur eyes pple,they're really nice colours and my lips are crying out for them.
and with a nice smell too=D
and im raving over the brilliant shine radiant highlighter!
but it's pretty expensive=x
sians.

anw,merry christmas everyone!
wad a tired christmas.
i feel nua and tired.
dont ask me why i havent gone to bed.

+ val-* @ 12:16 AM

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JIATIANJIA!!!

homesweethome people im back!

afterleavingsolonginaplacewithoutlightsatnightwithplentyofbugsandtricklingwater
ifeellikeasuakuwhenisawHDBflatswhenwewerelanding.

=D

that being said, cambodia gave me wonderful memories of it's scenery and night sky.
breathtaking.
i guess i'll miss it there,but im still glad to be a singaporean.
the laidback life is wad i need but i dont really desire.
too slow paced for me.
it was a good rest though,tiring but we slpt early and woke up early.
early i mean 630 everyday.and the sky is already damn bright.
so you dont really feel that it's that early.
i guess this post can really go on and on if i blog like this.
but it was certainly a memorable trip.
plenty of things happened,
i fell and stood up,fell and stood up.
and i guess i didnt really think that much when i do stuff.
probably it's just the life there.
but it feels good not to think too much.
but i guess that doesnt work in singapore.
wells.

+ val-* @ 8:56 PM

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liargame 2 is really so much better than GG3 man.im totally thrilled after the 2nd part of the 1st episode.damn thrilling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

watch watch!

i mean,GG 3 was really good.didnt disappoint me.
was better than the 1st 2 i thought.
but liargame 2 far surpasses the liargame 1.
like,i was really stunned for the 1st round,their strategies are damn cool.
and although u may figure out how it works but it's abt how you MAKE IT WORK.
sure i know wad akiyama was going to do but i have no idea how to manipulate the cards that way.
the explanations are damn cool man!
i think liargame 2 writers are really geniuses.
i've really havent had such thrill from shows for a long time.
freak me out qt a bit haha.
watchwatch people you wont be disappointed!

anw i'll be off to cambodia tmr.much as it'll be fun i think i'll miss singapore haha.
anything msg me i'll be bringing my phone!
seeya on 23rd when im back pple!
have so many of you that i still want to go out with!=D

+ val-* @ 6:32 PM

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uh,i dont know where to start.

i think after not updating for so long since exams ended meant there's too much to be said.
and i kind of miss the exam period(not the exams themselves!)
like,how everything was just revolved around mugging and relaxing.
and everyone will try not to make u unhappy or angry because you're mugging and they dont want you to fail ur exams.

i think countless days and some nights of fun after exam was detrimental.
seriously didnt have enough rest at all although i didnt go clubbing or anything alr.
tired=(
which makes me a grumpy old woman who snaps at people pretty easily.
argh.
better catch some slp now.

i just saw something that made me feel really really happy in a seemingly long time.
and im just grateful how much you actually cherish our friendship,
now,and hopefully for as long as possible.
just wad i needed to keep myself sane for at least a few more days.

tell me friends like you are hard to come by and are gems to be cherished forever;



+ val-* @ 11:52 PM

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