i think there's a fine line btwn reflecting and emoing.

and tell me that all the alcohol in slovenia didnt do damage to my brain.
cos my brain's not working well now that im back.
might be cause i want to do too many things at the same time.
haha lol i just rmbed that i have to do yet another thing lol.
and i think im suffering from post europe depression.
or maybe i already had pre-europe depression lololol.

not good to think so much.
i think i had enough of thinking.
must start to open my eyes and use my senses.
today i did and i think i laughed quite abit.
and honestly that's the most i laughed in quite a while.
to see the kids around and their funny comments
to see everyone again
to laugh damn hard at my own stupidity
i must say it felt good.
thinking just makes me more depressed especially when i have no answers

what happened to the optimistic val please come back!
=D=D=D

+ val-* @ 11:13 PM

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+ val-* @ 9:36 PM

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maybe it's time to reflect
since im starting a new year,
and stepping into adulthood.

physically i dont really feel the diff,
but i hope my mentality has become more matured.
then again,
judging by the way i handle things,
guess not.

but through all this,i hope i learn.
because it's better to learn now that never.
and i think, what's there to life?
is what im doing now what i really want to do
or just for the sake of doing it to prove something.
i wonder how my life will be like now,
if i never had all the expectations and goals i had in the past.
maybe my dream would have come true.
but i chose the practical route just like most other people.
society just doesnt allow you to have it ur way most of the time.

every birthday i had since my sixteenth,
was a huge milestone always.
learning betrayal,trust,friendship
relationship,happiness,stupidity
family,love,joy
laughter,teamwork,comaraderie
expectations,hopes,faith
leadership,self-management,struggles
my birthdays never failed to be "memorable" good or bad.
but even bad was good cos i rmb and learn from it.

just a few months ago i was struggling with my personality etc.
and now it's also the way i see things,the way i deal with things,etcetcetc.
which is quite alot to think about!hahahaha.
although now i havent quite figured it out cos it's not as simple as doing a meyer-briggs test
but im learning to let go.

just live life as it is now,
take time off everything,
save it for God,
because, maybe there i can find the answer.
in His arms He'll take and shield thee,
thou will find a solace there.

+ val-* @ 12:59 AM

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finally home in singapore.
i feel like slping!!!
jetlagjetlagjetlagjetlag.
hopefully i dont fall asleep during class tmr.

anw europe was great!
i've spent so long there i dont know where to start when people ask me to talk abt my trip.
personally i feel that i've learnt alot on this trip.
because i had fun but i had the time to ponder abt things as well.
and to learn more abt history and arts(they're like everywhere in europe)

i guess it was really memorable to spend my 21st overseas too
many things happened and i dont think i'll ever forget.

but it's time to come back to sunny singapore!
im sick of cheese flour potatoes and salad.
(give me some cooked veg rice and noodles=D)
and yay im going to see my dear friends tmr!
really glad to see them!

having sch tmr sucks though,
i feel like i havent rested enough haha.

chaochao till next time!

+ val-* @ 5:37 PM

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