maybe it's time to reflect
since im starting a new year,
and stepping into adulthood.

physically i dont really feel the diff,
but i hope my mentality has become more matured.
then again,
judging by the way i handle things,
guess not.

but through all this,i hope i learn.
because it's better to learn now that never.
and i think, what's there to life?
is what im doing now what i really want to do
or just for the sake of doing it to prove something.
i wonder how my life will be like now,
if i never had all the expectations and goals i had in the past.
maybe my dream would have come true.
but i chose the practical route just like most other people.
society just doesnt allow you to have it ur way most of the time.

every birthday i had since my sixteenth,
was a huge milestone always.
learning betrayal,trust,friendship
relationship,happiness,stupidity
family,love,joy
laughter,teamwork,comaraderie
expectations,hopes,faith
leadership,self-management,struggles
my birthdays never failed to be "memorable" good or bad.
but even bad was good cos i rmb and learn from it.

just a few months ago i was struggling with my personality etc.
and now it's also the way i see things,the way i deal with things,etcetcetc.
which is quite alot to think about!hahahaha.
although now i havent quite figured it out cos it's not as simple as doing a meyer-briggs test
but im learning to let go.

just live life as it is now,
take time off everything,
save it for God,
because, maybe there i can find the answer.
in His arms He'll take and shield thee,
thou will find a solace there.

+ val-* @ 12:59 AM

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