one smiley for today (:

i dont know why but i think i haven't felt so happy for a long long time.

on friday after serving,
i was feeling very dejected and disappointed with myself and my poor performance.
after losing oppotunities
after falling back in faith
i was given one FINALLY
and i screwed up.
everyday of the wk,
of months,
i've been waiting just for that day.
but i've no one to blame but myself.

i dont think i should give it up,
and my second chance is coming soon in 3 weeks
i'll cherrish it this time.

but things will never be the same again.
they always say,
dont compare urself with others when u serve.
but it's difficult not to when everyone else compares you with others.

then today came.
and i found inspiration in whatever step im going to take next.
i have a BIG DREAM.
it may not realise soon
it may not even realise if i dont have the perserverence.

divine intervention indeed.
after walking into the deep valleys again and again,
i think im finally climbing back uphill.
like finally.
the initial steps are always difficult
and i find myself slipping back to square one again and again.
but as long as i dont give up
the Lord won't give up on me.

so another BEEG SMILEY to my upward climb!=D

+ val-* @ 11:07 PM

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