today while i was studying (or not)
i let my mind drift away for quite some time to think about things.
first dance popped into my head and i was wondering if i would actually take up the 29/4 perf if i was in yr1 or 2.
probably not.
then i thought about pharmville and asked myself if i would have done it in the past.
maybe i would,just that i wouldn't have taken it up last yr due to reasons other than workload.
and then i thought about all the gifts that God gave me all the way from young until now.
whatever things He gave me the opportunity to pick up,
whatever traits He bestowed me since i was born.
i am thankful.

and i sometimes lament at the amount of things i do.
like why dont i just consent to living a normal mundane life and do things that are 10times more fun and less stressful.
here's the answer (from matthew 25):
¹⁴ “Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his wealth to them. ¹⁵ To one he gave five bags of gold, to another two bags, and to another one bag,^[a] each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. ¹⁶ The man who had received five bags of gold went at once and put his money to work and gained five bags more. ¹⁷ So also, the one with two bags of gold gained two more. ¹⁸ But the man who had received one bag went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master’s money.

¹⁹ “After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. ²⁰ The man who had received five bags of gold brought the other five. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with five bags of gold. See, I have gained five more.’

²¹ “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

²² “The man with two bags of gold also came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with two bags of gold; see, I have gained two more.’

²³ “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

²⁴ “Then the man who had received one bag of gold came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. ²⁵ So I was afraid and went out and hid your gold in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.’

²⁶ “His master replied, ‘You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? ²⁷ Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

²⁸ “‘So take the bag of gold from him and give it to the one who has ten bags. ²⁹ For whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them.

i always knew this passage, but never acknowledging it.
i guess i do now.
and if that's the case,
i will put in all my hard work to use what God has given me.
from a quote i heard in a korean drama
if you're supposed to draw water from the well,
do you not draw water instead of cutting wood?
well i guess that's the principle i will live by.
do what im meant to do and look only in that direction.


+ val-* @ 12:38 AM

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