have you ever felt annoyed by imperfections, or view how others do things with a critical eye, especially when you are pretty well-versed in that particular area?

i did. throughout the entire practice session, i was thinking in my head that gosh, why can't he see that it's this group of pple making mistakes and not the other? why do people not understand instructions when it's so clear? ohmygosh i can do it way better.

man, see my evil thoughts. instead of enjoying the role i am assigned to and doing my best, i am constantly viewing others critically, nitpicking the nitty grittys and giving a black face. instead of seeing the effort that others are putting in to try to meet the standards of the leader, all i saw was their incompetence.

maybe cos im in no power to comment on anything or to give suggestions. as much as i want to voice out my thoughts so that things can be better, it feels as if im overriding the authorities or being too bossy. don't want to make everyone unhappy either.

so i kept all these thoughts to myself. then again, it's no excuse for feeling so bitter about everything because everyone is putting in their best effort (i assume so). may God help me to see the good and not the bad, and perhaps find an opportunity to voice out my suggestions in a kindly and gentle manner, afterall i don't really mean to be hurtful or to condemn, i just want to help using whatever God gave me for the best of everybody(:

+ val-* @ 4:33 PM

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