ytd night, i was very happy.
(:
thanks for accompanying me!
watching change, reminded me of pharmville. it's about politics, but more so about leadership and human relations. it helped me sort out thoughts that have been bugging me, all the struggles i had post pharmville till now, to reconcile all the conflicting feedback and to finally put my thoughts into writing.
the higher you climb, the more steadfast you have to be. i wasn't, i admit. but change showed me what it's like, to persevere, holding fast to your believes, and the bottom of it all, to stay true to yourself. it is always hard to anticipate any form of attack, but when it comes, never to think of defence 1st, but to strive for reconciliation and to acknowledge that 1) humans are selfish. everyone protects their own interest, everyone protects those who matters to them, and those they are responsible for. we also have to acknowledge that 2) no 2 persons are alike. because when we acknowledge that fact, we'll know that everyone is different, and have different thoughts and viewpoints on the same issue. it's precisely because we think everyone is the same and thinks the same as we do, that we get impatient and annoyed and aggressive when others think differently. if we let emotions take control, nothing positive will come out of it. we just have to sit down and talk it through, and if you've grasp the 2 points above, then something good may come out of the talk.
and always stay true to yourself. never forget the initial zealousness and aspiration that brought you to your position. it's very easy to doubt and regret, because it is never easy to lead. you can't exactly please everybody, but try your best anyway. because you don't have to prove anything to anybody, only to fulfill what you landed yourself in for - your beliefs and dreams. when troubles come and drive you to a corner, Man's natural tendency is to escape. but don't. because you'll regret it more if you do then if u stuck with it till the end. when pharmville ended, i questioned myself many times if it was worth it to take up this project, which was regret in its plain view. but instead i should have asked myself, would i regret if i had not taken up the project? the answer would have been clearer to me. because all the tiny things that made me regret taking up the project is nothing compared to the super big regret of not even attempting to try. sometimes i think our mind is just weird. we just need to think in another manner about the same issue to put things into perspective when they mean exactly the same thing.
how can i ever forget those who supported me till the end although i pressured them, deprive them of the manpower i promised, didnt do a good job in communications and so on, because they treat me as a friend who's putting in her utmost effort? who continued to strive on when they're pissed off at me, because they know if they left me alone i would have an even harder time? call me biased, but i cannot be ungrateful. because they stood by me before during and after everything and gave their best.
i also accept responsibility for the accusations made. i did not blindly chuck them aside without giving them due consideration. they are for me, to grow and to be a better leader, a better person. even for those that are nowhere near the truth and those meant to hurt and not to build, they've been helpful in understanding people's expectations and to be more mindful of their concerns. and till now, i keep all these criticisms in my heart as a constant reminder and to ponder about them in everything i do.
and one last thing, to have a big heart. it helps you go a long way(:
+ val-* @ 2:57 PM