instead of doing some self study that is kind of required for o/p but not demanded of me
i decided to stop for awhile (actually i've been nuaing ever since my case presentation was over)
and ponder about the issues that i've always have with myself.

i feel kind of abit weird saying my thoughts abt myself here, but aiya heck.

it goes that i always like to compare myself with others.
it's not necessarily in a competitive way,
but i dont like to present myself as better or worse than my partner/peers in front of mentors etc.
so i'd rather hold back my soap if my partner hasnt done it yet, and i certainly dont mind sharing the answers i've found so that we'll kind of be on equal grounds.
then i realised that you can be equal in the academics,
but our characters will still show the difference.
sometimes i ask myself,
is it better to be more quiet serious and consistent
or to be smiley, outspoken and confident?
it's kind of difficult to strike a balance,
i can be either but not both.
i can see the adv of both la,
so i guess i'll conclude that i should just be myself
and accept the evaluation no matter what the grade is.
i keep telling myself to try my best for this preceptorship cos that's how work life is going to be like in the future, but in the end the best still wasnt ideal.to me la.that's just me, always having crazy expectations of myself. but again i wouldn't be discouraged or dejected by my performance this time, i'll be sure to do better when im out as a pre-reg!=D

anyway, after stopping not to only see the good points of others but also my own, i've realised that to each his/her own. instead of feeling inferior to others, i should work on my good points and make them better!afterall each indiv is different so that we can complement each other to make a good team!=D

and after saying so much, im once again too lazy to do my self study. all my resolve in doing the drug DI workup is gone with the wind.sandman, here i come!

+ val-* @ 11:17 PM

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