fyp has slowly but surely taken a part of me with it. while everyone is already getting used to the swing of things like i did previously, i'm still struggling to adapt to an all new env of chemistry again, just when i got used to the bio part. i still like to do synthesis despite all the crazy shit that happened this week. that kind of made me feel slightly happier.
somehow i think i don't adapt to new env very quickly. the problems just keep coming when i'm still all blur and im abit bu zhi suo cuo. but the good thing is it forces me to think independently, like im forced to work my brain harder cos i die die have to solve it by myself when there's no one to rely on. it's not too bad, helps me rmb things better.
friends keep me sane. they crack me up, we talk about all sorts of rubbish, gossip alittle for some spice in our lives, complain about pharmacy and the likes together, HTHT, and update me about what's happening around me and in the news. Somehow i feel that im abit not in the world. other than fyp now i've got nothing to share in my life. catching up with friends is what i try to do every single moment when i can free myself frm fyp, and they bring alittle sanity back into my life each time. like how jiahui puts it,"fyp is robbing all my friends away". i sure feel it too! and i thank God for every single moment i can spend with friends(:
another thing that keeps me sane is my piano. whenever i feel so burnt out and all ready to cry i think when i reach home i shed tears of relief and joy instead. without my piano i think i would have lived my life in a daze. playing the piano keeps my worries away and i just immerse in the wonderful music and dream away...
that said, i think i should go back to dance again. i think it's another thing that injects abit more energy to my mundane life.
sundays are precious too. with time dedicated to God and bible study and reading spiritual books, it's the day for me to truly find rest and peace with the One who gives them. He keeps me alive and happy all the time despite the craziness of life everyday. sunday is a time of refreshment and reminder of the One who created and governs all on the Earth and the Heavens. i know i can place my trust in Him truly and be happy.
i think at this crossroad of life again it's time for some reflection every now and then. to find out what sustains me, what i truly want to do in life, what matters to me, what do i care about, to prioritise and to move forward.
+ val-* @ 4:35 PM