happy new year's eve!
mine will be pretty uneventful actually. gonna stay home all day to write my report. hopefully i'll be productive dont think i'll have much time to write when school starts.
lab was so tiring this wk i burnt out before today damn. at least i won't be doing lab for another 3 days thanks to another PH in lieu. this time im not stupidly going to lab again. so happy holidays people!
+ val-* @ 1:37 AM
i am so tired!!! but somehow i regained my motivation to quickly finish up my lab so this lab im pia-ing like siao again. or rather, it's now pia or never. no time liao. but i dont really feel the sense of dread to go to lab like i did last time, partly cos the difficult part is over, now is just pure hard work. but overall research is still sian and i will not do it for a career.
okay enough of fyp. anw my christmas was pretty awesome this yr albeit super tiring also. since the kukup trip i havent been abit to really rest much, feel like i got not enough slp every night. or rather, can't slp well! too used to slping super little. ytd night i slpt at 11 only to wake up suddenly at 4am-.- had some difficulty going back to slp but i eventually did and then my alarm rang!gosh!i thought i'll be wide awake but i felt super tired so i snoozed 3 times before waking up. still woke up at 810 anw. life is super crazy now i really cant wait for fyp to be over. think next sem is going to be worse plus im still joining dance haha. but dance is to relieve my fyp boredom really. can't spend my last yr just doing fyp. makes me feel like dying everyday.
u know i haven't turned on my comp for 11 days?! no wonder my fujitsu laptop is still working after 4 years man. this yr i use super little haha.can dont use for a few days or a week straight. i think not for long though, gotta start writing my report argh. why does everything link back to fyp. zzz. okay im like ranting non stop shall not blog anymore ciao people!
+ val-* @ 10:58 PM
i felt super retarded when i tapped my card to access my lab and it said access denied.only tjen i realised it's ph im lieu of ytd.sianz.equals no nmr equals cant do much.but still did anw till 6 and wanted to write my report initially but decided to meet my church frens instead.yr4 is too sjort to just be doing fp on a ph.so there.ciao happy hols pple!merry christmas and happy new year(:
+ val-* @ 7:44 PM
you know how i like to blog when im the busiest. today has been a crazy day and i've yet to do the work im supposed to do tonight. but here i am so i shall type fast.
kukup has been awesome. i think i've been longing for such a break for a long time and i think it really came timely because it was the time i got stuck at fyp. and i was still stressing out on sun before i left for kukup on mon but yeah im alright now, things are moving again but i kidn of have more to do cos my prof just increased the amt of cpds i have to make gosh!but let's not go into that.
anw i had the time of my life in kukup and im too lazy to elaborate but basically we just sang and nua the day away with lots of good seafood heh. life's little pleasures(: and then i was back ytd in sg at 230 and at 330 i went for dance and totally enjoyed myself! can't believed i haven't danced for a long time. it made me super hungry though. met sean for dinner (ate laksa which i had a sudden craving for and which was real good) and watch MI4. the show was obviously good if not i'll be asleep alr, been rushing around the entire day and was really tired(obviously we wouldn't slp much in kukup). then today lab was hectic cos after a meeting with my sup suddenly i had alot of things to do. finished lab at 7 and went to holland v to meet my friends for dinner. did i mention it's my 5th time in holland v in 2 wks? everyone just wants to meet me there cos it's more convenient for me, really appreciate it though, if not i'll be real late for dates! had a really enjoyable time and by 11 i was stoning there alr so my fren suggested we leave. and so i was. caught the last train back to sch at 1130 and now im just ready to start whatever i need to complete by tmr. gosh feel so dead. okay going to do them now and catch some slp. goodnight peeps!
+ val-* @ 12:27 AM
muahahahahaha me ish feeling happy!
1) i'm meeting my close dance friend tmr! gonna hear exciting news from her=D
2) me ish influenced by the mood of others=D
so even though typing the report sucks but i realised it's not too bad when im typing on microsoft word with 4 other tabs opened in mozilla=D
fyp woes go away!stop haunting me everyday!dont come again another day i never want to see you again hahaha.
+ val-* @ 11:17 PM
i have a perpetual longing for home now. just one night of stay in my hostel and i feel like running back home again.
maybe i'll just drive home later.
fyp really sucks to the core. i have nv in my life hated doing something so much before. now i know why they said to find a job that you like and why pple dont like to sign bonds. so thank goodness preceptorship at hospital was alright, although i know that it's of course different when it's ur job. but i think i can convince myself better at doing that than this lame shit that i dont really want to give a damn but i have to.
edit: haiz decided not to drive home. gotta show some determination here. even if i am taking things more chillax it doesnt mean slack. should just be slow and steady. shall started writing my report now. sup's alr bugging me for it. i can do it go valval! soon it'll be over!
+ val-* @ 8:05 PM
it's weird how i tend to blog more during the exam period. oh wait not really, because it's not that im less busy now, in fact im busier now zzz.
last wk has been a hell week for me. despite the 2 days of enjoyment i was in a pretty depressed mood and i dont know why. and on thu i was so stressed i just broke down like finally. and i stayed home the entire wk cos i couldn't bear to stay alone in sch with that shitty mood. but somehow i managed to straighten my thoughts and on fri i was thinking why the hell i was so stressed and i couldn't think of the reason.
so now fyp is going to be more chillax for me. no more doing crazy hours in lab and having no life.
today was a really great day(: went to east coast to cycle with sean and enjoy the sun (didn't play with the sand or the sea sadly!) and just chill at parkway. after a crazy wk i was glad to exercise a little and chill a little haha. oh and dance will start next wk for me so that's something else to look forward to(:
i've been procrastinating for some fyp stuff but nah not going to do it this wk. shall enjoy 1st and maybe next wk i'll put in a little more effort to do it maybe.
+ val-* @ 11:39 PM
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+ val-* @ 1:08 AM
haha it feels good to be out of lab before the sun sets!! im out of lab at 450 today!wah totally break record of my whole wk!
but now i have to prepare for sunday sch. gosh crazy wk!cant wait to relax for today night and tmr=DDD
btw it felt super freaking good to rant about fyp and complain to each other like crazy for the whole lunch! it's the thing that keeps all of us going! actually now almost every lunch even with others is also about fyp and how it really sucks.
okay ttyl. i think for the whole month of dec it'll be like this so damn sian!hear me rant here too hahaha
+ val-* @ 5:40 PM
i am so tired everyday i can't do anything once i reach my room. which is bad cos i have stuff to do!
i thought after exams it'll be better cos hey it's the hols after lab i can still do stuff. no! it means stay for longer hours in the lab to do things at machine gun pace. i need to stop thinking if all this is worth it because i know damn well it's not im just doing it because i die die have to do it. the timeline is so tight that any slack would just delay everything and not make my workload lighter. sigh.
i want my hols!!!!!!!it's so bad everyday i just feel like giving up but i cant :(
+ val-* @ 10:34 PM