jealousy is the art of counting someone else's blessings instead of your own.
Stop wasting time explaining yourself to others. – Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it anyway. Just do what you know in your heart is right.
Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done.
Stop trying to be everything to everyone. – Doing so is impossible, and trying will only burn you out. But making one person smile CAN change the world. Maybe not the whole world, but their world. So narrow your focus.
Stop worrying so much. – Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of its joy. One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time? Three years? Five years?” If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.
i got all these from here: http://www.marcandangel.com/2011/12/11/30-things-to-stop-doing-to-yourself/
i think these are the stuff that i need to focus on. esp the perfectionist one. and the worrying. fyp is totally not something that i should worry about so much. it matters only for my salary i guess. so what if i get 1st class? nothing much, but if i dont i waste all my effort these years trying to maintain my cap when i could have done other stuff. well actually not really, i think i did do what i wanted to in uni.. like dance and organising events and stuff. and i guess studying hard now would be rewarding when i come out to work. so i should stop worrying about fyp. guess i just want to put in my best effort for everything i do. there, my perfectionist attitude. but so what if the real world doesn't reward perfectionist, i feel the satisfaction knowing i did my best. if i didn't do my best and i don't do well, i would definitely regret it cos i would think if i had did my best i would have gotten my 1st class. actually even when i did my best and i dont get my 1st class, i would think i didn't put in my best and could have done better haha. ironies of life. set too high expectations for myself. maybe cos i expect myself to be able to achieve it. nvm, it's the last lap in sch alr i'll just yeah do my best for the last time in sch and then i'll be working and fyp will just be a memory tucked away somewhere that i will have nothing to do with hopefully for the rest of my life.
im at a phase of life where i feel it's time to grow up and know what i want and face reality. in my heart im honestly still a kid filled with fantasy and innocence feeling all carefree and childish, but that part of me will be hidden preciously deep in my heart with utmost care as i continue to face growing up bravely. despite knowing that i'll have 4 more yrs to think of what i want to do in the future, but im putting more serious thought into a few paths that i may take, and even considering stepping out of my comfort zone to study overseas - something i would have never considered in the past. no way im too rooted in singapore. and not only just work, also about other aspects of my life, my relationship with God and with humans. haha i feel old alr, like im past the stage of pia-ing and looking for greater heights. im all ready to settle for a normal mundane life filled with happiness ahead trusting in my Lord to guide me through life's storms. i've been living for others (mainly my parents) when im schooling, i've been focused on the wrong stuff that prob dont matter to me in the future. i dont mean studying hard is wrong, i don't regret it at all. to be able to end up with this profession is due to all these hard work!but working so hard when i was young is alright, but i want to take things easier from now on. it's not that i dont have my dreams, but i'll only do what is necessary to achieve them, to take a more focused view and to set priorities in my stuff, not to blindly work hard for everything. and esp not to try too hard for anything. esp in pleasing people (well depends on who).
this dec was really great for me. other than fyp which is the only sad thing in my whole dec, i found out where my heart lies and i take great pleasure in that. and i think if life is like that for the rest of my life i would be very happy. so now i just need fyp to be over 1st, i know there are always other difficulties like fyp that will come along in life, but if there are other things to be happy about, my life would be truly balanced and blessed.
haha i haven't blogged such a serious post in ages. but i kind of want to document this down. maybe i'll look back in a few years and think how come i could come up with all these then lol. sch's starting tmr excites!!! honestly without fyp it would be more awesome haha. ciao!
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