freedom calls. really? i dont know. feels like my schooling years are going to end but at the same time with tonnes of group project and presentations and fyp and what not, feels like it's still going to be for awhile.
im in a sort of midlife crisis now. LOLOLOL. not really midlife yet, but am starting to think about my career path my financials (somehow everyone's forcing me to think about this) my life my everything adultish that is going to start after sch ends. sometimes i just dont feel like attending lectures anymore cos when u only have 2months of sch left noting down every single thing lecturers say seem pretty insignificant alr. i can't believe i'd say this but after thinking through life many many times i still dont really know what i want sadly to say. maybe i should just not think too much and just focus on finishing sch 1st.
sometimes i question my decisions. esp when im under pressure from people whom i care about. mehhh. wished i can just not care. it's easy to say just do what you want but in life you always get choices that arent really choices.such a negative post haha. but all i feel like doing now is sleep. somehow now after recess wk is over i've regained my sleep quality thank goodness. but now that i have, i got no time to slp damn!
man i feel the fire dying out of me. there's a part of me that really really wants to slack alr. what a thing to say before even starting work hahaha!but i want to sleep more, read more, play my piano more etcetcetc. sometimes i wish my grad trip isn't that long. okay enough of ranting. but these few days had been pretty bad for me sigh.
+ val-* @ 11:32 PM