on days like this when i can't fall asleep, that's when i think alot.

but thinking alot isn't a bad thing. often it starts with all things bad, can't figure out why things are like this, can't think of any way certain issues can be resolved, but during times like this, the conclusions are always the same:
God walks with me.

sometimes i wonder if i never had days or rather nights like this, would i be so convicted of God's presence in my life. and today, it took reading someone's blog to be all enlightened again.

yes, val is weak but God is strong.

and when i relate how others treat me the way i dislike it, and i think of how i've been treating God, i'm just guilty as charged. but God does not treat me like how the narrow-minded and irritating me does to others. He loves me all the more, comforts me all the more, and constantly pursues me with His unfailing love.

with His strength, i can carry on. with His love, i can love again and again. and now, i just need to let God.
that's exactly what continuing in the grace of God meant from the BSF study, a question i wasnt able to answer then. now i do.

+ val-* @ 2:30 AM

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