do ur usual best.
do ur best.
FLIP TABLE.
me am sick of those words. i worked so hard for the past 3 yr so that i can slack this sem and have a breeze.
me no aiming for A. me don't want to work hard for this exam. all those words just make me want to do even worse. so shut up and take my money.
+ val-* @ 8:36 PM
HI GUYS!!! me is still hooked on running man hahahaha.
but im not here to talk about it's funny part, there was just 1 episode that struck me really deeply.
the episode where the 1:9 match aim was to make yoo jae suk tell 3 lies through the lie detector. and yjs was like, no matter what, just tell the truth. but no matter how convinced he was about that, the cast really gave him a hell time! asked him questions about how he felt about his contemporaries (whom pple has always compared him to), ask him about friendship, who he felt closer to, asked him about his love life, ask him if there's anyone he wants out of running man...gosh. i would definitely have not been able to withstand even 3 questions. but he answered with so much sincerity, that i think he just won the casts and the viewers over! and his answers were so touching honestly! like:
RM cast: have you ever thought you were better than ___?
YJS: no.
WITH SO MUCH SINCERITY I COULD TELL HE REALLY THINK SO EVEN W/O THE LIE DETECTOR.
RM cast: have you ever thought that RM would not have existed without you.
YJS: no.
omgosh ask me that about pharmville and hear my thickskin answer. of course i would have harboured that thought some time or another even if i'd prob acknowledge ultimately that it wasnt.
RM cast: have you ever wanted to kick any cast out of RM?
YJS: no, never.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!
honestly if it's me i'll prob want to kick gwang soo out or sth, he's so useless! i was really really touched by the faith he had in the pple he worked with and his humility. so out of curiosity i watched his speech when he won the grand award at the SBS entertainment award 2011. gosh, touched beyond words. people can really feel the sincerity and humility from his words!i've found a new person that i really respect and look up to, and he shall be my role model in my attitude towards people when i go out to work! i think if u're really sincere people can tell! and also to be more open hearted and open minded! acknowledge everyone's hard work and never once think that what i can do is solely due to my own abilities! honestly to be so accomplished and humble at the same time is so difficult!oh and not forgetting the hard times he had before he got famous, to endure any hardship and persevere no matter what happens!and treat everyone with respect and love. okay me is just writing whatever comes to my mind now. sleep time.
+ val-* @ 12:54 AM
seriously hooked onto running man. today morning i went to sch with the determination of studying quite abit for dfd, and sure enough i finished all the SDLs.sure made me complacent man. after 5hours of serious studying, i head home to reward myself with
anyway, 4yrs of my uni life just came to an end ytd. actually i dont know what to feel, sad that i have no friends?haha not sure why pple like to say that but i guess it's just how to define friends right?and how many you want haha. but then again maybe i've grown to be a little more weary/wary. that close friends really wont be by ur side forever. in life there's always pple who come and go. it's like until now people like samantha still has a very high weightage in my heart, but i dont meet her very often now to be honest. ahwells. i guess it's not a long run thing but whether you have someone you can confide to at the very moment you're feeling upset about sth? bah why isn't there one in my life? not guy, but a girl because guys just think differently. but i am still appreciative to everyone around me who has tolerated my bluntness (sucks to be you) and straightforward comments, i ain't very tactful but sincerity 100% okay hahaha. yes i need to change, but sometimes in life im just so sick of being diplomatic and fake. and it's something that i see more and more often when i growup. yes the adult world, and im not looking fwd to it. because you trust less and less and maybe you might even lose yourself along the way. need to relook my principles and make sure i hold fast to them when i enter the working arena. of course not without fully reflecting what i really want 1st because that's going to be my fate for a long long time...
+ val-* @ 1:08 AM
Just finished episode 12 of running man!! ohman such a bad time to get hooked on such a show!
TOO FUNNY FOR WORDS.
and absolutely love the cast!<3
i must say the 1st character that i really liked is suk jin, gee i really have a thing for older guys hahaha. but he really has that charisma, and considering he's alr 40 he really looks good and clean. but it's not really the looks (looks wise jung ki is damn cute:D), he is really smart and i dont know, i just feel attracted to him hahahahaha. and jae suk is next on the list haha. he's damn funny although not that good looking, but all ready for a good game and is a really good host!made the show alot more enjoyable heh.
and after watching a few episodes, kang gary has been promoted to my like list heh! i think im just touched by the way he treats ji hyo, be it just for show or whatever, but he can really say the cheesiest lines and i still think it's really sweet haha. behind his peaceful and stony demeanor i see a guy who will really care for his gf and wife awwwww. but ok. back to reality. it's really just for show haha.
the ideas in this gameshow is too awesome!japan's no laughing batsu game is funny but there's too much inside jokes and it can get abit dirty and too gruesome. but this gameshow is simply relaxing and entertaining! i guess what adds the extra kick is the roles each player plays in the show, not assuming their usual self but building on established and personality in the show. makes it all the more funny!
okay gotta cut down on my show time!but it sure is giving me my daily dose of laughter!very healthy for the mind!keeps me going each day!
+ val-* @ 1:15 AM
today is good friday. had an eventful day with service in the morning and a night of singspiration and reflection, where the choir presented the seven last words, which are the 7 last phrases that Christ uttered on the cross. we reflected on the via dolorosa, the road to calvary that Jesus took, and suffered humiliation to die for us on the cross. it was a day of affirming my faith all over again, and it means alot to me(:
Down the Vía Dolorosa in Jerusalem that day
The soldiers tried to clear the narrow street
But the crowd pressed in to see
The Man condemned to die on Calvary
He was bleeding from a beating, there were stripes upon His back
And He wore a crown of thorns upon His head
And He bore with every step
The scorn of those who cried out for His death
Down the Vía Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King,
But He chose to walk that road out of
His love for you and me.
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.
The soldiers tried to clear the narrow street
But the crowd pressed in to see
The Man condemned to die on Calvary
He was bleeding from a beating, there were stripes upon His back
And He wore a crown of thorns upon His head
And He bore with every step
The scorn of those who cried out for His death
Down the Vía Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King,
But He chose to walk that road out of
His love for you and me.
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.
it's been a good wkend, get to slack abit and sleep more!happy:D
+ val-* @ 11:47 PM
me is waiting for pple to upload photos of me and my poster!!!so far those that i have are of pretty poor quality so i shall not upload today.
but it's still worth saying now: BYEBYEEFFWHYPEEEEEEEEE! :DDDDDDD
+ val-* @ 11:15 PM
it's times like this, i never know when random things becomes a trigger.
from things like prata at yih, seeing pple in scrubs at science canteen, seeing random pple, walking along the main road to s14, reading some pple's post on fb or twitter, seeing some photos or real life incidents, flipping through my file and seeing some sheets of paper, using whatsapp and chancing upon some convo..yadayada.
sometimes i wish i could become as jaded as i did for fyp.
the problem is, i wasn't really that jaded for fyp as i think i was.
+ val-* @ 12:57 AM
now i finally understand that, for many things, putting in your best doesn't always have good returns.
many understood that through studies. me, through every other thing than studies.
since young, i try my best being the best daughter, sister, friend whatever. there were some returns, but more disappointment than anything else.
every year i reflect on my past years, who i am now, whether it's really what i want, etc.
every year, i fail to convince myself that it's never between me and man, it's all about me and God.
perhaps it's because between me and God, i never did my best anyway. my best was always for this world, one thing i know i'll terribly regret if i don't change.
but it's like i have Parkinson's, i have bradykinesia, slow to initiate, difficult to change directions and moving in life with a cogwheel movement - jerky and unstable. i have postural instability, a difficulty in standing firm in my faith, a rigid, stiff person who clings onto what can be seen. i have tremors at rest, and akathisia of inner restlessness where the Holy Spirit constantly nags at me but all i do is stay stationary and trying very hard to control the involuntary tremors that i have. it's like my soul is degenerating, causing significant morbidity and affecting my activities of daily living and quality of life.
thankfully a broken and contrite heart God will not despise. unlike parkinsons which is not curable, i can be made strong again in God. maybe i'll have my on and off periods as well, but God will definitely preserve me all the way through life's long journey ahead(:
+ val-* @ 11:44 PM
today is an awesome day(:
at least it concludes all the crazy fyp days in my last yr as a student.
and tmr everything will really be all over(:
am sincerely happy for all my friends who won the poster competition and you all really deserve it!
of course i feel abit disappointed also but i guess it's just a bonus to win, am really proud of all of you:D
and heh heh im going to get a few treats:DDDDDDD so happened that quite a number who won are quite close friends heh heh!just had my 1st one today at jus acia! everyone was so high and happy it was as if there isnt a ca on thu lol! really enjoyed great times like this!
and how we related 9gag to the entire thing LOLOLOLOLOLOL. TOO FUNNY.
we were saying tmr go take pic with winning posters and give the jackie chan face, and go to those really nice posters that everyone think will win but nv and post Y U NO WIN hahahaha. and all the flip table memes and challenge accepted scenarios were damn funny too LOLOLOL. i guess the one phrase everyone would want to say is: LIGHT, Y U NO BRIGHTER?!!! but i guess that made those who won all the more proud that their poster should stand out in such bad lighting:D
as much as i want to post a pic of me with my poster, i shall do that tmr heh!today wear until too chui alr. need to wear nice nice tmr and take pic with my poster:D then i shall truly declare BYEBYEEFFWHYPEEE!!
+ val-* @ 10:04 PM
Today as i did my BSF homework, i got reminded of 1 theme: that God is a God who wants us to know Him, and this, is via His creation and His words.
For as I walked around and looked carefully at your objects of worship, I even found an altar with this inscription: TO AN UNKNOWN GOD. So you are ignorant of the very thing you worship—and this is what I am going to proclaim to you.
-Acts 17:23
Everyone deep down knows that there is a God. People seek for God but don't know where to look. but God wants us to know Him.
18 The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of people, who suppress the truth by their wickedness, 19 since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. 20 For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.
-Romans 1:18-20
Because of the sins of mankind, we are unable to understand God fully. Even the bible, there are many who doubt that it is truly the Word of God. Of course there are many arguments for and against, but i guess the strongest one is that, it is life transforming. If we quieten our hearts and read the bible, it can truly transform our lives.
This few months have been a time of reflecting of my religion and my relationship with God. Though i have heard many things against it, but God has preserved me. Till now, i am convinced and convicted in my faith that it is not without reason that my God is a true God. Although i have a long way to go to truly relook at my foundation again and know truly why i had believed, but God's joy and love overwhelms me that i cannot ignore His presence. Through Him i can triumph over the devil and relook at my life's perspectives. and decisions become clear as the Holy Spirit's guidance becomes too clear to ignore through alive and meaningful prayers.
+ val-* @ 10:29 PM
i love my jazzies(: they bring joy to my life. and inspiration too! am feeling the love<3
speaking to some of them, i really see a very different side to their crazy and fun loving selves! although they're all younger than me but all very mature and pretty young ladies at heart:D will definitely miss them alot alot!!
DDC today was a different experience haha. dont think there will be any pictures to upload, but i did enjoy myself too!in a different way though! didn't really know alot of people, but they make an effort to talk to me at least(: and of course to fool around with some of the older (as in joined earlier) members that i knew when i joined! quite fun la overall haha.
i feel very contradicted now. very very extremely upset but then i'll recover and feel happier and question alot of things and then i feel angry and then resigned, then i'll feel better and happier and now im okay. at least throughout this period it's made me more convicted of what i truly want, and i must think of ways to balance my emotions!
+ val-* @ 12:05 AM