seriously. i think i have absolute faith in my patience and tolerance level now. sometimes i wonder if i'll die earlier owing to all the pent up stress and frustration. i was going to try controlling my tears next, but i think if i even try to control that i'll die even earlier. no rest for the weary.

and once again i proved my point, best is never enough. to put in your effort never returns with good. sometimes i wished i was just daring enough to heck everything. i tried it once, it was scary enough. thrilling during the process though, really enjoyed it that time.

other than that, work is pretty enjoyable so far. although i am far from feeling competent (i really dont, i cant talk smoothly or organise my counseling points well). and whatever i learnt in sch i returned to the profs liao. even simple question like SE of NSAIDs i actually forgot. sigh. i'm just having faith in the Lord in guiding me through this 9 months and placing my trust in everyone's words saying that after the 9 months everyone will be competent.hokay ciao pple im emotionally exhausted.

+ val-* @ 8:02 PM

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