val is enlightened(:

i think i've been too blinded by the glory of inpatient, the self-deceiving notion that clinical is the way to go.

That all other places are boring, that eventually u'll still end up in inpatient.

That clinics are boring, after a while outpatient becomes stagnant.

That retail is boring, there isn't even clinics there.

I've was fully self-psycho-ed that i wanted inpatient, and i even felt so after i completed inpatient.

(now that i think back, what did i like about it?)

the excitement?yeah maybe. 

but thinking through what you actually do in a day, i found many frustrations in ward review, many inconveniences during bedside dispensing (except billing), boring job as ops team in the afternoon, and staying back for ward checks past office hours, the no life-ness in ip (yes i believe it continues after prereg don't believe in the nonsense ppl tell you).

Suddenly, i realised, maybe im not suited for inpatient work; it frustrates me.

Then i thought about my life goals as a pharmacist. Yes, i have high aspirations.

I have pple telling me to be like so and so in the future, thank you for having confidence in me.

But, nah. No management for me, i still love clinical practice. 

I shall not reveal my goals here, but i can visualise myself 5 yrs down the road. and the future is bright(:

and what i can say is, outpatient will do me good. Now, i finally understood the golden words of those at NCC outpatient. They were the ones who planted that idea in me. They were the ones who made me realise what is most important as a pharmacist. Thank you.

Of course, for now i'm still into wk 2 of my outpatient rotation, so there's still more for me to explore and time for me to decide if this is finally the one i'd settle with. fingers crossed!