i keep saying i don't have time to even stop and do some reflections, but in fact i do, judging from the amount of variety shows i watch per week. but im facing a midlife crisis (okay quarter) since last year and i've been escaping from it. because i feel ultra sad and upset when i think about it. and the issueS still aren't resolved. my life is still in a mess, and at twentythree i think i can't change things anymore. Or rather, i feel v tired to make the effort to change. i think i've lost my drive. i was tired and i wanted a peaceful and slowed down life. now that i've slowed down, i dont think i feel better, but i can't get up again. maybe a faster pace just distracted me from all this things i think about when the pace is slowed. all along i've been escaping.

+ val-* @ 11:10 PM

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