ultra tired. told myself to just last through this wk and it'll be ok, but i feel like i died alr. everyday im so damn tired and stressed i can feel my productivity and dropping.

hurry, fri come and let me have my break.

+ val-* @ 7:58 PM

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Thank God for a really nice cup of coffee at highlanders, despite still doing project stuff at the same time.
Thank God for letting me appear for that 15min at the redundant session just to hang around with old friends and chit chat.
Thank God there are lovely angels who answered questions for me when i'm not around and was called.
Thank God for an awesome supervisor who has been slogging equally hard for our project these few days! makes me really motivated to work hard as well!
Thank God for an understanding buddy at work who knows i dont mean it when i raise my voice slightly at him just because we had it rough from mentors, who does the questions for me cos im dying with my project.
Thank God tingying is back :DDDDDD

i started this entry to thank God for the 1st thing. but His grace is just too bountiful to stop at one.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD



+ val-* @ 10:00 PM

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oh.my.goodnesssssssssss. so ultra freaking pissed off.

expectations are crazy now.
people expect you to rmb things that you were told only ONCE.
come on, you tell me you rmb everything that your lecturer tell you in a 2 hour lecture i'll comply to your expectations.

and IF you don't understand my answer, you don't understand what you're saying cos you're saying the same thing in a different phrasing. how can you say i don't understand a concept just cos i didn't give you the exact PHRASING you wanted? through your answer, i also can ask you back the same question you were asking me for me to derive at your EXACT answer.

the worse thing is, just cos i didn't give you the answer you wanted you scold the person who taught us?!!! i felt ultra sorry for the person =( and ultra guilty for not being able to answer =( sigh that person damn poor thing.

so now i'm damn stressed up just cos i need to thoroughly go through everything that was taught in that 2 hours. which was like, 4-5 experiments D: seriously even during FYP we were taught 1 experiment at a time okay.

so freaking stressed that i couldn't even sleep in peace on the bus home when i was really exhausted.
D: D: D:

+ val-* @ 7:53 PM

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Today, is the day my favourite mentor lives sgh. i feel happy for P, but i also feel damn sad that P won't be around anymore. P was someone whom i could really share my thoughts with and be open with, and i enjoyed the chitchat sessions we had and also the valuable advice P gave. P wrote such a sweet email to everyone, and i felt really touched by it. Our time together was short but meaningful.

In any case, i wouldn't let down P's expectations of me. and for thinking so highly of me. i wish P all the best for P's future path as well!

+ val-* @ 12:45 AM

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Finally outpatient is over, and finally i chose my rotation. well, i receive mixed response to my choice, but i know clearly what i want and im happy it's my choice, so not too affected by how pple view it.

Then again there was someone who said to me today, yeah that's fine, it's good to do what you like(:
somehow, i was very encouraged by that(:

Now, i'm at ID elective. Thankfully, i had to choose before going into this rotation. I actually am quite surprised at myself, cos i quite enjoy it, much as i don't really want to admit it. The whole day is just so activity packed and exciting! tiring also of course. ahh. okay no regrets, gotta work towards my goal!

and ASP pple are nice! i guess it's just a facade that they're fierce, they're really nice to talk to! and patient when they teach too(:

looking forward to a nice 4 weeks!

(:




+ val-* @ 8:50 PM

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happy new year 2013!

2012 is finally gone, i must say i don't miss it very much.

it was a year of pain. sad to say.
there were so many things running through my head, i think my mental state couldn't cope really.
although i haven't been blogging much, but i think things that happened in 2012 will be here to stay with me forever because OTHERS will remind me.

of course, 2012 was not without joy. the pain was just too great if i don't remind myself of the joy i would never have remembered.

now that 2013 is here, i feel indifferent.
being someone who is easily excited and happy with festive and happy occasions, i guess this is not very good news.

but 2012 has taught me an important lesson, one that i hope i would never ever ever forget.
and in 2013, that is my only resolution.

to find renewed hope in the Lord,
to strengthen my faith in Him.
to love like He loves me.
to draw close to Him once more.

-GOD-fidence-

+ val-* @ 8:41 PM

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