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+ val-* @ 11:29 PM
3 more weekssssssssssssssssssssss!
I really can't can't can't wait! sick of all these nonsense.
But i guess i have alot of studying to do still after prereg, but save all the nonsense assignments and proj, that's good enough.
I can't wait to dance, do the things i want to do and be a little happier in life. All the agony of failing exams and being afraid of failling will be over. I don't want to live my live in fear anymore.
Life may still be stressful, but i promise myself breathers after prereg (:
+ val-* @ 10:22 PM
well i read it through once and i kind of think it's pretty true, wanted to comment on it but PRESENTATION TMR 1ST.
+ val-* @ 12:47 AM
today felt like liberation. although it's still abit far away. somehow i was pretty much in the mood to drink haha.
i guess it's cos i got a few things off my chest. things that made my past month or so frustrating and stressed out. glad for a break!
anyway everything's going to be over soon and im glad (: can't wait to finish this part studying part working nonsense!
+ val-* @ 11:59 PM
me does competency questions. me wonders why every yr pple pass competency.
@#$%$%*^&#$^!&^&@#$&
boo.
+ val-* @ 8:53 PM
life is hard. especially since this year started.
actually, since my whole life.
but again and again there were beautiful report cards at each stage of my life despite all the crazy shit i went through. sometimes i asked myself what do i want? being very goal-oriented, setting a goal spurs me on, and usually i don't realise all the shit until the job is done and then i would wonder how i actually got through all the shit.
i don't know when i started losing steam. to put it nicely, it was re-evaluation of my life's priorities, but the truth is, am i just afraid of getting my hands stained with shit so i just decided to be comfortable with life? or maybe it's a combination of both reasons. if u asked me when was it that i was happiest, i have no idea, cos ever since i slacked i was bogged down by other issues. i think i just need to get myself up and going and chiong that bit more. well i don't know. it's tough to decide for now.
in any case, i finally touched my piano for a significant amount of time. while i play, i feel myself again. while i play, i can calm down and think through things. while i play, i am enlightened. love music<3 nbsp="" p="">
+ val-* @ 10:19 PM
i think work life sucks for me. i need personal space and time, which im getting only after work (and that's like, doing more work). or watching korean variety shows. although that's an alone time but not exactly what i would do if i had more time. or if i wasn't so tired everyday.
i think asp is fun......................haiz. although i prob don't want to be stuck doing it right from the start i guess. at least i get to try a variety of things 1st at OP.
you know i was planning to go for dance and more church stuff when i start OP?so that means err lesser alone time again DAMN. nvm. let's get out of prereg 1st.
+ val-* @ 10:23 PM
seriously, what's more important in life? keeping your cool and tolerating everything and make urself stressed and unhappy and annoyed and pissed just to maintain your reputation or to just let it out and risk everything, reputation friendship and all?
seriously, i don't know anymore. i don't know why society made it that way. i think i was going to implode. it's like i was a vacuum trying to just suck it up and tell myself it's okay i'll just tolerate it but it just hit the limit. so i exploded. i couldn't implode further i was torturing myself enough. after i exploded, i realised suddenly pple FINALLY knew what happened. but all they do, is to put the fire out by dumping pails of water. i really cld feel myself imploding again. sigh. why is there no proper outlet in life :( all i want to do now is scream, but all i can do now is to cry silently. damn gek. cry also cannot cry out loud zzz.
finally people decided to do sth abt it. i guess it's kind of better now -- but all my predictions were correct. if i nv made noise i would have been the only one being stressed and wasting my own time.
+ val-* @ 6:37 PM
omgosh i want to just stand at the top of a mountain and scream at the top of my voice now.
:'((((((((((((((
sadly, i can't. wts. i finally saw someone's true colours today. act only. but i guess most pple are like that. it's okay. ONE MORE MONTH.
+ val-* @ 10:37 PM
i feel very upset today.
sigh.
it's alright.
+ val-* @ 10:22 PM
YESSSSSSSSS. report submitted phew.
the next thing i knew, was that my sup said :"so when are you sending me your presentation slides?"
-.-
seriously. now i know who is the true workaholic.
whatever. break comes first for tmr.
the amazing thing: it's my last day at lab!whoo!i won't miss it man if not for the people.
and i amazingly have migraine so after feeling like puking the whole morning and finally puking after lunch, i went home and slept. the most amazing thing: i slept for 4hours. i wanted to sleep for like 40min only HAHAHA. cmi la my sleep debt like shit now. past 2 weeks sleep damn little. didn't even want to post the pictures with the lab ppl on fb cos my eyebags are seriously the most atrociously black and humongous now. if they didn't want it i wouldn't have posted it.
alrights. time for some sleep, cos tmr it'll be studying for my asp rotation again. seriously, abx is quite interesting. omgosh i'll never imagine myself saying this even 1 month before this man. ahhh. what has asp done to me man.
+ val-* @ 12:39 AM