seriously, what's more important in life? keeping your cool and tolerating everything and make urself stressed and unhappy and annoyed and pissed just to maintain your reputation or to just let it out and risk everything, reputation friendship and all?
seriously, i don't know anymore. i don't know why society made it that way. i think i was going to implode. it's like i was a vacuum trying to just suck it up and tell myself it's okay i'll just tolerate it but it just hit the limit. so i exploded. i couldn't implode further i was torturing myself enough. after i exploded, i realised suddenly pple FINALLY knew what happened. but all they do, is to put the fire out by dumping pails of water. i really cld feel myself imploding again. sigh. why is there no proper outlet in life :( all i want to do now is scream, but all i can do now is to cry silently. damn gek. cry also cannot cry out loud zzz.
finally people decided to do sth abt it. i guess it's kind of better now -- but all my predictions were correct. if i nv made noise i would have been the only one being stressed and wasting my own time.
+ val-* @ 6:37 PM