depressed.

in my slump now. nv felt so out of shape in 24 yrs of my life.
somehow the fact that everyone is having a hard life too just doesn't help.

me wants a break! i want a 1 week break spent in singapore aloneeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
okay not necessarily alone but just to do whatever i want with nobody to bug me or pester me or to stick to me or to nag at me.

i want to just lie on the beach and stare at the blue sky and fall asleep. and pretend im in heaven.
i want to sit in a cafe, enjoy my cup of coffee with no hurry to zoom off somewhere and read my book.
i want to dance!
i want to nua a whole day at home playing my piano, just lying around, watching my shows and entertaining myself.
i want to cook something, make something, draw something.
i want to hang out with my dear friends (when i finally have enough alone time) and do some crazy shit. or alternatively baring our hearts out to each other.
i want to have some quiet time, with God. unfortunately i put this last again, just to be really honest with myself. i hope to make it a natural priority in me some time soon.




+ val-* @ 11:10 PM

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