i feel myself sinking into depressive mood once again.
there's always this repeated cycle. why?
actually. i guess im not depressed. maybe just alittle on the grumpy side.
reason for the grumpy side? idk man. please i need to revive my crazy happy self!
+ val-* @ 9:32 PM
met up with kaye ytd(:
well, after not seeing her since she left for US (and only once with chunyim and mandy when she was back), i felt thrilled and yet also a little apprehensive meeting her. supposed to meet on a tue where i have nth and we cld chit chat for hours, but she could only meet on wed where i supposedly have dance at 830pm, but i end work at 5 so i thought that was still pretty alright. In the end there was still like 100+ pts at 5pm and i was pretty sure i cldnt leave. i was still thinking might as well since maybe we wouldn't have that much to talk about anw. but something just compelled me to reject the offer of OT and i left sharply at 5pm.
it turned out to be the best decision ever.
honestly i kind of forgot how the meeting was initiated. we met anw, in crowded ion but seeking for quiet places to chill and chit chat. eventually settled for the pork katsu place in the basement (nv bothered rmbing the name) and tea loft, which was really conducive for chatting. in fact, we were stuck on an "exciting" topic that made me miss my dance class timing totally haha. (my dance friends happily told me after that they thought i fainted in some unknown location silly girls!)
sometimes, fate is a really weird thing. you find it in places you would least expect. but in any case, most appreciated most of the time haha.
another thing i realised is, as stupid you feel your emotions or actions are, there're prob 13049824 other persons on earth who probably feels or behaves the same ways as you do. so IT'S PERFECTLY OKAY dont be too harsh on yourself.
"i rmb, the page i drew flowers on. and i wrote, life is a bed of roses. and you wrote, they will die. and while i was going to frown, your next line will stay with me forever. BUT IT'S OKAY, GROW NEW ONES."
+ val-* @ 10:41 PM
think before you speak. think if your words are:
True
Helpful
Important
Necessary
Kind
lesson for me, from http://sg.news.yahoo.com/blogs/singaporescene/don-t-10-phrases-conversation-030704662.html
+ val-* @ 8:03 PM
continuation from ytd:
lessons learnt:
1) managing people is more important than outcome.
no, not saying that outcome is not important, but it's also important that everyone is working happily and is not overly tired and forced to do unreasonable work. when people are happy they produce better work. it's an important lesson for me, i think i often neglect that. yeah, maybe if i didnt utilise everyone to their max true that the outcome might be compromised, but at least here everyone is cooperative and automatic, everyone would still work hard together to the end.
2) there are always people like that in the workplace. dont let them affect you too much.
well, i must say im quite an emotional person, so i get affected by small things like this very easily. not to mention that i was really v v tired. but in the workplace thankfully they're the minority. and if you felt this way towards that person prob others would too. just gotta suck it up and move on.
3) to have a friend is better than having an enemy around.
when u see an apology that's made for the sake of explaining why something was done rather than a true apology, what would you reply? or would you even reply? i guess it's really fine both ways, but if forgive and forget is too hard a lesson, the least you could do is to at least make peace and pray hard that the other person doesnt hold a grudge and do this to you again. afterall, as the lesson says..
4) nah, no vengeful hearts.
in my anger ytd, i just had to say, wait till im in his position and he'll get it. well, it's really a waste of my tears and effort to let him taste what it is like. if i were to stoop to his level, omgosh then what am i?! i'll just be fair in my turn and his actions will just backfire one day.
5) with no evil, there is no good.
through this incident, i felt really touched by my dear colleagues. they're so understanding, some even noticed how tired i was and helped me in tiny ways that i really appreciated! also through many other things, the mistakes i made, how everyone is so tolerant and encouraging, im really glad to be working here. of course i know i shouldn't assume they're really not critical of my mistakes, but at least i felt that they went through the same thing before and could at least empathise with me and encourage me not to make the same mistakes again. a reminder to self to also be like that when i have mentees under me.
just some points of reflections, and i think i should keep up with this. life is so nua now that i should grasp the opportunity to learn some life lessons, after a whole yr of just knowledge lessons.
+ val-* @ 11:24 AM
omgosh 2pm's new album is so jjang(: much likesssss!
the songs are like ultra hypnotic and awesome!
and adtoy is nosebleed indeed! *junho!!!!!!!*
well, the main aim of this post was not to rave about 2pm but yeah couldnt help it lol.
ytd and today has been really bad at work, and i think it was so for everyone at soc.
i really liked the teamwork here and how everyone very auto-ly helps wherever needs help.
so when someone just slave drives people around i got really mad.
i dont think people here are that dumb that will only operate on orders.
everyone is working hard tog.
alrights, shall not continue ranting about that someone, spoils my mood really.
but i'm really thankful that for every bad guy there are dozens of angels(:
they really made me feel alot better and reflect about today.
and i think, instead of being angry about it, i shouldn't repay evil for evil.
for evil will have its own consequences.
and i still have my lovelies with me for support.
so i will still be fair when im fm.
and from what i don't want others to be, so i will learn from it and not be like that.
+ val-* @ 11:54 PM
I wish this was really the case. sometimes when you live your life trying to please pple for too long, when u stop doing so suddenly life feels meaningless.
+ val-* @ 8:33 PM
just read this: http://liveyourlegend.net/20-uncommon-career-lessons-from-my-weekend-with-warren-buffett/
i think it's a good summary of success. i particularly find that 10 and 11 and 14 rings a bell in me.
16 is sth i find very important in my job.
all in all, i find the lessons very insightful and i think i really need to start my learning engine.
im becoming pretty stagnant and lazy. i can do more than this gotta suck it up and go!
+ val-* @ 12:18 AM
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. the day has finally come.
i really try v v hard okay. i know, no excuses for such things.
don't even know where to start saying.
:(
such a dangerous job. same with all healthcare professionals alike. mistakes are not tolerable.
and what's even more not tolerable, is the expectations of us.
are we machines? (we are already faster than machines)
are we psychics? (no, mcps is not written on your faces nor in my memory)
do i need more exercise? (oh, i think you need it more)
oh, u waited for a long time? (oh yes, im sacrificing my lunch for you)
do a thousand and one good things for various customers, continue working unappreciated, and get killed for some small issue. why did i even want to become a pharmacist i dont know. heckkk, i should just get married, be a taitai and leave a harmless life.
+ val-* @ 9:49 PM