my brain is a sponge. from young, it soaks up information pretty quickly, such that i once did thing i pick up things pretty quickly. over the years by hearing endless number of pple telling me they didnt study for psle and o levels then i realised what a hardworking geek i was. damn i guess i wasn't that smart. but still i thank God that i was hardworking.

but now i feel like my brain is still a sponge..but an overworked.sponge. u know how if u squeeze a sponge too many times it will just lose it's elasticity right? imagining me doing that to my brain like 28419103 times a year. i think my STM fills the whole brain. i barely keep info in my long term memory. every test i forced my brain to soak up for that 1 paper then squeeze the info out just to soak up another paper's info.

the 1st time i felt my brain resisting was in jc. i was having difficulty soaking up the info already. partly i guess i was alr hardworking in pri and sec sch to do so well that jc just requires me to power up x10. somehow i survived and got into uni, and survived the 1st 3 years. i felt that my brain was still somewhat working then. but in year 4, omgosh i think my brain just refused to be squeezed anymore. i think after yr 4 i stopped retaining information. my brain didn't want to make the effort to. if i wasnt using the information, out it goes.

:(

it was quite devastating. it's really like 101% effort to retain info man. zzz. after a while i gave up trying. so now my brain is just surviving with minimal info for me to do my job and the rest of the info on PRN basis.

the point is: im going to die for next week's presentation. damn.

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