These few weeks, somehow got me pondering whether i wanted to stay where i am or move on.
i don't know what made me feel that way, maybe all alone it had been a delicate balance and just in these 6 months there were changes that tilted the scale just ever slightly such that i wavered in my decision.

there were many thoughts put into the struggle again this time, but i, follow my heart. somehow there is this nagging that tells me to stay, although i very much want to go over as well. i can't explain it, since both sounds as if it was a decision of the heart rather than the mind. i guess i finally know today.

i have great colleagues. they are really the most awesome bunch of colleagues i can ask for. and happen that someone was just not around; it made my return from retail so much more awesome and peaceful and without hypocrisy lingering in the air. and with all this, i am really thankful to be right here right now.

of course, in the course of the 2 weeks, i did think very much of what i want to do. actually when portfolio or money is out of the equation as it is for me now, i actually can find things that i enjoy doing midst the mundane routine of work.

so there it is. i hope this lasts me 6 months again. i don't really like to have to reconsider everything again haha.

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